The Sad Short Story

Guys!!!! You should read this sad story.... I'm sure that you'll cry.

It hurts. Every time I look at her it hurts. I fell in love with her from the very beginning.

We first met at a job when I got hired. I saw her and my heart stopped. She ignored me of course. But slowly I started bring up crazy stories about my past and she got interested and laughed a lot with me. We got close to the point of being great friends. But I knew my feelings for her were strong. I've been on dates but I've never fallen in love before. When I was with her it was like I wasn't falling for her it was as if I was flying while being with her or talking to her. One day she started moving in on me and I told her that if she did that then I would fall hard for her. But one fateful night we kissed in my car at the park. She was nervous because I had taken her first kiss. After awhile we did everything with each other. We were there for each other when things got tough. I gave her everything. I know that money doesn't buy happiness but I got her what she wanted even if it cost me my last penny. I showed her so much love. All I wanted all I ever wanted from life and her was love. I didn't want anything else. I knew she had bills to pay and I told her she didn't have to get me anything. She did come up short most of the time for special days. But it didn't matter. I always tried to go all out. She loves me but not like how I love her. I always had a mind set to put others before myself because they could have it worse and I needed to suck it up. Since she is almost rarely romantic with me I thought that's what I deserved. I always texted her, gave her kisses, did things that she didn't want to do, got her things that she wanted even though we said I didn't have to but she really did want it, and even adopted a puppy so that "we" could have it. The puppy stays at my place so I take care of it. It's hard to not give someone you love everything in the world. 

One day a guy who use to like her starts talking to her even though she has no interest (or so I though). He is going into the army so I didn't think much of it. But things started changing. I didn't know if it was because we were at the point of the relationship that we were comfortable with each other or we were getting distant. I stayed the same but she started not wanted to make love anymore or show any type of romance towards me. I was getting jealous because that other guy kept texting her while I was with her. I told her after a month or two after they started texting even though she said in the beginning nothing would happen that I was uncomfortable with them texting so much. She stopped talking to him for a week. You guys are probably wondering why hasn't she told him that she was in a relationship? Well the answer to that is because I am a girl and she didn't want anyone to know we were dating because she likes to portray herself to everyone but me that she is straight as an arrow. Anyway after a week we were hanging out and she told me that she has to talk to him because he is her friend and that she felt bad because he kept texting her everyday. He started to get distant but I told her it's okay to text him back because she told me that she loves me. The thing is at this point she doesn't even text me a lot but when I see her text to him it's more than just a few words. I only get a few words. She is flirting with him through text and it bothers the crap out of me. I said this to her I gave her the option to leave me for him 3 times and she said no because she loves me. If she loved me then why is she doing this to me why does it feel like cruel punishment? All I did was show love and all I wanted was love in return. It hurts to look at her because I already know that the truth is that she will never love me the way I love her. He is leaving in a week for training so they can't talk but that gave them a reason to go have dinner together before he left. He confessed to her 3 times and a day ago he asked her "if I wasn't leaving would you have dated me?" And she said "maybe" when I read that it broke my heart. I wanted to die and end my life because through out my life I was always rejected by family and society. I was never allowed to be loved. I will never be loved because I am different, fat(even though I'm average on body weight), ugly(because I don't wear a lot of makeup). I've learned at a young age that no matter how much you give do not expect things in return. Guess that goes with love as well. I'll bury my heartache into the chest of depression in my head so I will always pull a fake smile that no one will see through. I tried to be happy but it wasn't meant to be. She tortures me with this other guy. But I'm always the bad guy. I can't leave her though because she is still fragile. My heart has been cut out from my body and my tears can no longer shed. I have lost the very thing that I truely believed in all things to be the meaning of life which is love. 

"The greatest thing is to love and be loved in return"

Finding Truths

In my life, I have taken many journeys without which I would not have experienced important truths. My father started us off early, taking us on many journeys to help us understand that true knowledge comes only from experience. We took trips every winter break to Madrid, Mexico, Costa Rica, and to Jamaica and Trinidad, my parents’ homeland for Christmas. Silly things I remember from those trips include the mango chili sauce on the pork in Maui, the names of the women who gave out the towels by the pools in Selva Verde, Costa Rica, eating dinner at 10 p.m. in Spain. These were all tourist experiences that I, at first, found spellbinding. My truths were the truths of the tourist brochures: beautiful hotels, beaches, and cities. I did not see the blindfolds. I did not appreciate how being held hostage by the beauty of the surface—the beaches and cities—blinded me to the absence of Puerto Rican natives on the streets of San Juan; I did not understand how the prevalence and familiarity of English conspired to veil the beauty of the Spanish language beneath volumes of English translations.

I learned more about these truths in my sophomore year of high school, when I was among a group of students selected to visit Cuba. My grandmother was born in Cuba, yet I had never thought to research my own heritage. I have remained the naïve American who saw Castro as some distant enemy of my country, accepting this as fact because this seemed to be the accepted wisdom. I soon became intrigued, however, with this supposed plague to my freedom, my culture, and everything good and decent. I began to think, just what is communism anyway? What’s so bad about Castro and Cuba—and I hear they have good coffee. I believed that what was missing was a lack of understanding between our two cultures, and that acceptance of our differences would come only with knowledge.

My first impression of Cuba was the absence of commercialism. I saw no giant golden arch enticing hungry Cubans with beef-laced fries; I did see billboards of Che Guevara and signposts exhorting unity and love. I realized, however, that much of the uniqueness that I relished here might be gone if the trade blockades in Cuba were ever lifted. The parallels and the irony were not lost on me. I was stepping out of an American political cave that shrouded the beauty of Cuba and stepping into another, one built on patriotic socialism, one where truths were just as ideological as, yet very different from, mine.

History, I recognized, is never objective. The journeys I have taken have been colored by my prior experiences and by what my feelings were in those moments. Everyone holds a piece of the truth. Maybe facts don’t matter. Perhaps my experience is my truth and the more truths I hear from everyone else, the closer I will get to harmonization. Maybe there is no harmony, and I must go through life challenging and being challenged, perhaps finding perspectives from which I can extract—but never call—truth. I must simply find ways to understand others, to seek in them what is common to us all and perhaps someday find unity in our common human bond. This is what life has taught me so far, my sum of truths gleaned from experiencing many cultures. I don’t know if these truths will hold, but I hope that my college experience will be like my trip to Cuba—challenging some truths, strengthening others, and helping me experience new ones.

9th March

1. Finagle, verb: achieve something by means of trickery or devious methods
Steven was able to finagle one of the last seats on the train by convincing the conductor that his torn stub was actually a valid tickets.

2. Screed, noun: an abusive rant (often tedious)
Joey had difficulty hanging out with his former best friend Perry, who, during his entire cup of coffee, enumerated all of the government's deficiencies- only to break ranks and launch into some screed against big business.

3. Boorish, adjective: ill-mannered and coarse or contemptible in behaviour or appearance
Bukowski was known for being a boorish drunk and alienating close friends and family.

4. Misogynist, noun: a person who dislikes women in particular
Many have accused Hemingway of being a quiet misogynist, but recently unearthed letters argue against this belief.

5. Demure, adjective: to be modest and shy
The portrait of her in a simple white blouse was sweet and demure.

8th March

1. Melee, noun: a wild, confusing fight or struggle
After enduring daily taunts about my name, I became enraged and pummeled the schoolyard bully and his sycophantic friends in a brutal melee.

2. Cornucopia, noun: an abundant supply of something good
The International Food Expo was a cornucopia of culinary delights; gourmet foods from every continent were under one roof.

3. Martial, adjective: suggesting war or military life
Americans tend to remember Abraham Lincoln as kindly and wise, not all martial, despite the fact that he was involved in the fiercest was America has even fought.

4. Derogative, adjective: expressed as worthless or in negative terms
Never before have we seen a debate between two political candidates that was so derogative and filthy.

5. Glib, adjective: (of a person) speaking with ease but without sincerity
I have found that the more glib the salesman, the worse the product.

7th March

1. Staid, adjective: characterized by dignity and propriety
Frank came from a staid environment, so he was shocked that his college roommate sold narcotics.

2. Decimation, noun: destroying or killing a large part of the population
The decimation after atomic bombs were dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki is incomprehensible.

3. Wanton, adjective: without check or limitation; showing no moral restraints to one's anger, desire, or appetites
Due to wanton behaviour and crude language, the drunk man was thrown out the bar asked to never return.

4. Facetious, adjective: cleverly amusing in tone
Facetious behaviour will not be tolerated during sex education class; it's time for all of you to treat these matters like mature adults.

5. Provisional, adjective: under terms not final or fully worked out of agreed upon
Until the corporate office hands down a definitive decision on use of the extra offices, we will share their use in provisional arrangement.

6th March

1. Evenhanded, adjective: without partially
Teachers often have trouble being evenhanded to all of their varied students.

2. Appreciable, adjective: large enough to be noticed (usually refer to an amount)
There is an appreciable difference between those who say they can get the job done and those who actually get the job done.

3. Uncanny, adjective: suggesting the operation of supernatural influences; surpassing the ordinary or normal
Reggie has an uncanny ability to connect with animals: feral cats will readily approach him, and sometimes even wild birds will land on his finger.

4. Irresolute, adjective: uncertain how to act or proceed
He stood irresolute at the split in the trail, not sure which route would lead back to the camp.

5. Savvy, noun: a perceptive understanding
Although a great CEO, he did not have the political savvy to win the election.

5th March

1. Flounder, verb: behave awkwardly; have difficulties
Sylvia has excelled at advanced calculus, but ironically, when she has to deal with taxes, she flounders.

2. Altruism, noun: the quality of unselfish concern for the welfare of others
Albert Schweitzer spent most of his life doing missionary work as a doctor in Africa, seeking no reward, apparently motivated only by altruism.

3. Badger, verb: to pester
Badgered by his parents to find a job, the 30-year-old loafer instead joined a gang of itinerant musicians.

4. Genial, adjective: agreeable, conducive to comfort
Betty is a genial young woman; everyone she meets is put at ease by her elegance and grace.

5. Rakish, adjective: marked by a carefree unconventionality or disreputableness
As soon as he arrived in the city, the rakish young man bought some drugs and headed straight for the seedy parts of town.

4th March

1. Impregnable, adjective: immune to attack; incapable of being tampered with
As a child, Amy would pillow castles and pretend they were impregnable fortresses.

2. Preemptive, adjective: done before someone else can do it
Just as Martha was about to take the only cookie left on the table, Noah preemptively swiped it.

3. Cadaverous, adjective: emaciated; gaunt
Some actors take challenging roles in which they have to lose so much weight that they appear cadaverous.

4. Intermittent, adjective: stopping and starting at irregular intervals
The intermittent thunder continued and the night was punctuated by cracks of lightning-a surreal sleepless night.

5. Perquisite, noun: a right reserved exclusively by a particular person or group (especially a hereditary or official right)
Even as the dishwater at the French restaurant, Josh quickly learned that he had the perquisite of being able to eat terrific food for half the price diners would pay.

3rd March

1. Unseemly, adjective: not in keeping with accepted standards of what is right or proper in polite society
He acted in an unseemly manner, insulting the hostess and then speaking ill of her deceased husband.

2. Connive, verb: taking part in immoral and unethical plots
With the help of the prince, the queen connived to overthrow the king.

3. Travail, noun: use of physical or mental energy; agony or anguish
While they experienced nothing but travails in refinishing the kitchen, they completed the master bedroom in less than a weekend.

4. Disenfranchise, verb: deprive of voting rights
The U.S. Constitution disenfranchised women until 1920 when they were given the right to vote.

5. Telling, adjective: significant and revealing of another factor
Her unbecoming dress was very telling when it came to her sense of fashion.

2nd March

1. Reservation, noun: an unstated doubt that prevents you from accepting something wholeheartedly

I was initially excited by the idea of a trip to Washington, D.C. but now that I have read about the high crime statistics there, I have some reservations.

2. Errant, adjective: to be wandering; not sticking to a circumscribed path

Unlike his peers, who spent their hours studying in the library, Matthew preferred errant walks through the university campus.

3. Slapdash, adjective: carelessly and hastily put together

The office building had been constructed in a slapdash manner, so it did not surprise officials when, during a small earthquake, a large crack emerged on the façade of the building.

4. Indict, verb: to formally charge or accuse of wrong-doing

The bank robber was indicated on several major charges, including possession of a firearm.

5. Ascribe, verb: attribute or credit to

History ascribes The Odyssey and The Iliad to Homer, but scholars now debate whether he was a historical figure or a fictitious name.

1st March

1. Behoove, verb: to be one’s duty or obligation

The teacher looked down at the student and said, “It would behoove you to be in class on time and complete your homework, so that you don’t repeat freshman English for a third straight year”.

2. Cerebral, adjective: involving intelligence rather than emotions or instinct

A cerebral analysis of most pop music finds it to be simple and childish, but that ignores the point- the music’s effect on the listener.

3. Aboveboard, adjective: open and honest

The mayor, despite his avuncular face plastered about the city, was hardly aboveboard- some concluded that it was his ingratiating smile that allowed him to engage in corrupt behavior and get away with it.

4. Pithy, adjective: concise and full of meaning

I enjoy reading the Daodejing for its pithy and insightful prose; it always gives me something to think about.

5. Chivalrous, adjective: being attentive to women like an ideal knight

Marco’s chivalrous ways, like opening doors and pulling out chairs, was much appreciated by his date.

28th February

1. Impending, adjective: close in time; about to occur

The impending doom of our world has been a discussed and debated for 2000 years-maybe even longer.

2. Unnerve, verb: to make nervous or upset

At one time unnerved by math problems, she began avidly “Magoosh-ing”, and soon became adept at even combinations and permutations questions.

3. Apex, noun: the highest point                                      

The Ivy League is considered the apex of the secondary education system.

4. Candid, adjective: straightforward and honest

Even with a perfect stranger, Charles was always candid and would rarely hold anything back.

5. Amply, adverb: more than is adequate

The boat was amply supplied for its year at sea-no man would go hungry or thirsty.

27th February

1. Variance, noun: the quality of being different

The cynic quipped, “There is not much variance in politicians; they all seem to lie”.

2. Eke, verb: to live off meager resources to scrape by

Stranded in a cabin over the winter, Terry was able to eke out an existence on canned food.

3. Delegate, verb: give an assignment to (a person)

Since the senior manager had to go on many international business trips, she was forced to delegate many of her responsibilities to two lower-level managers.

4. Augment, verb: enlargement or increase; improve

Ideally, the restaurant’s augmented menu will expand its clientele and increase its profits.

5. Err, verb: to make an error

He erred on thinking that “indigent” and “indignant” were synonyms.

26th February

1. Diligent, adjective: characterized by care and perseverance in carrying out tasks

Michael was a diligent gardener, never leaving a leaf on the ground and regularly watering each plant.

2. Egotist, noun: a conceited and self-centered person

An egotist, Natasha had few friends because of her inability to talk about anything expect her dream of becoming the next American Idol.

3. Irk, verb: irritate or vex

My little sisters has a, way of irking and annoying me like no other person.

4. Illicit, adjective: contrary to or forbidden by law

Though Al Capone was engaged in many illicit activities, he was finally arrested for income tax evasion, a relatively minor offense.

5. Goad, verb: urge on with unpleasant comments

Dough did not want to enter the race, but Jim, through a steady stream of taunts, goaded him into signing up for it.

25th February

1. Mesmerize, to spellbind or enthrall

The plot and the characters were so well developed that many viewers were mesmerized, unable to move their eyes from the screen for even a single second.

2. Inkling, noun: a slight suggestion or vague understanding

Lynne speaks four Romance languages, but she doesn’t have an inkling about how East Asian languages are structured.

3. Dupe, verb: to trick or swindle          

Once again a get-rich-fast Internet scheme ha duped Harold into submitting a $5,000 check to a sham operation.

4. Acme, noun: the highest point of achievement

The new Cessna airplanes will be the acme of comfort, offering reclining seats and ample legroom.

5. Serene, adjective: calm and peaceful

I’d usually seen him so serene; usually, he was a knot of stress and anxiety from hours of trading on the stock exchange.

24th February

1. Muted, adjectively: softened, subdued

Helen preferred muted Earth colors, such as green and brown, to the bright pinks and red her sister liked.

2. Hound, verb: to pursue relentlessly

An implacable foe of corruption, Eliot Ness hounded out graft in all forms-he even helped nab Al Capone.

3. Docile, adjective: easily handled or managed

Barnyard animals are considerably more docile than the animals.

4. Pristine, adjective: unspoiled, untouched

The glacial lake was pristine and we filled our canteens to drink deeply.

5. Colossal, adjective: As great in size or force or extent as to elicit awe

Few appreciate the colossal scale of the sun: if hollow, it could contain a million Earths.